yup.
One of my favorite new dresses! It’s the same Zara one that I also have in camel, but they went on sale and I couldn’t resist the red one!
HYPE this look on LOOKBOOK.nu: http://lookbook.nu/look/2319451-La-Dame-en-Rouge
-R
This is a test entry.
I am having an extremely difficult day (and now night). When it rains, it pours. I wonder if dealing with misfortunes as a child and then climbing my way up the ladder to paving my own road in life followed by small successes has made it more difficult for me to handle future misfortunes.
First of all, I found out on visa journey (a visa forum where everyone shares their experiences with visas etc) that the London Embassy is a week backed up with printing and mailing the visas.
The embassy told Gareth he’d have it by this thursday, which is tomorrow (well, today as it’s 12:04 am.) This is obviously not going to happen.
Thus a load of devistation and a cloud hovering over my weekend I’m going to spend in Michigan. My family all anticipated seeing Gareth, cleaned the bedroom for Gareth and I to stay in, made sure Gareth could attend my cousins graduation etc.
This may seem like a “yeah, oh well he’ll get it soon…” type of situation, which it’s true it will come soon, maybe friday, maybe tomorrow. But nothing is worse than being told you’ll have the person you love the most back in your arms thursday and then disappointment only after seeing that many others on the visa forum that interviewed a week before us are still twiddling their thumbs waiting for their visas.
And then this stupid Ebay case was filed against me and to sum it up the girl broke my jeffrey campbell wedges lace off and then felt bad for herself and demanded a refund when I clearly stated I do not issue refunds. Funny because when she first got them she was very happy and excited to wear them. Yep, she wasn’t excited after she broke them. It was clearly her fault that she broke them and ebay misread my argument, thinking she RECEIVED the shoes with a broken lace which is TOTALLY and 110% not true. So the spoiled girl gets her way. That’s alright, I believe in a thing called Karma. She knows in her heart that she broke the shoes and doesn’t deserve a refund.
And Ebay was nice enough to make it so I can’t reply to this e-mail they sent me to defend myself. Thus, I am defenseless, 91 dollars poorer and anticipating the arrival of my jeffrey campbells, broken and unable to relist.
Whatever.
I am alright sometimes, when I am not alone, which I am alone most of the time. Today has been exceptionally difficult, since we are a week past due + other people with dates later than ours are moving forward. We’re sitting, stagnant.
And I keep getting told that this kind of attitude is why we are sitting stagnant in the first place. I believe in fate and karma, but I do not believe that because I have emotion about something 100% valid that it keeps me behind.
I can’t not have these feelings. I need him.
i crave you. it drives me mad. i know sometimes i can be a bit cheeky but you know the truth. the truth is you are everything. my best friend, my family, my lover, my breath of fresh air, my resolution of problems.
and i can’t wait to see you again.
hello from an internet cafe in london. hmmmm what to say what to say… i just love it here. jenny and i just returned from piccadilly circus. it made me think of chicago… the architecture and night life. fancy restaraunts and elegant bars.
i need to write a lot more but i only bought so many minutes.
let me just say i like having these at my fingertips… £££££££
love, rachel
the last night that i’m in america for a little while.
hopefully it feels like a long while. i just want to be wrapped up in you.
i can’t wait to finally feel.
tomorrow i’m on a plane.
xxxxx
r
today was just a rollercoaster. and it wasn’t all related to you (because i know you’re reading this). but girls. i have no idea how to put up with them anymore. i just randomly get messaged and attacked and i really can’t deal with the drama.
and me being so at ease anymore with things doesn’t quite help. right now i have so many things on my plate that some things are so miniscule. and ive just had a “go with the flow” attitude and just trying to remain as stress-free as possible, and done a wonderful job until you had to throw a fit. and i cried.
and to think ive even spoken w/ her about the subject of me not being able to handle most girls. and she complied.
if you’re going to talk the talk, walk the walk.
